In 2 days,i am officially a graduating student.
In 2 days,i will be stepping out of my comfort zone.
In 2 days,i will be meeting new people.
In 2 days,i will be having new friends.
In 2 days,i will need to be independent.
In 2 days,i will be facing new challenges.
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And in 2 days,there will be a whole new world for me.
A whole new world for me....
By asking my teacher name Mr. Google,i have learned the other countries education system.And with the 'research' that i have just did,it seems that most of them are still secured at the same school at the of 16.Then,at the age of 18 they will be off to find their new destinations.I totally have no sound knowledge of all the education system in other countries,but what i know now is that,..I am in a very very hot soup!
Well here's to why i'm in a hot soup.Firstly,i am graduating.In Singapore,it means that i have finished the compulsory 10 years of education.Therefore in 2 days time,I will need to choose to where i want to pursue my studies.A polytehcnic?Junior colleges?Pre-universities?I really don't know!I am quite envious with some of my friends that have decided to what they gonna do,where they are going and etc..To be honest,I feel a bit antsy..(Well,is that the correct word to describe what i'm feeling right now?)
Initially,i was thinking of taking a gap year..I still need to think of what i wanna do?What i want to achieve.You may say that i have no dreams or goals in life..But let me tell you,i have A LOT of dreams and goals in my life.Too many that i have a hard time choosing.Way too many!That is my problem.I did some researching to what i can do in my gap year.Travelling.Volunteering.YAY!!
However,in my point of view,at the age of 16 and taking a gap year is a bad choice.I think im still too young to be having a gap year right now.But then at the same time,i think i should.Should i?Or i should not? *fickle-minded on!* I bet my parents wont be allowing me to do have a gap year..
Some may ask about what i wanna be?What is my dream job?
My dream job,is to be able to help and interact with people.I dont want to be working and facing the computer the whole day.(But if you give me the job to face the computer and watch dramas for the whole day,hell yeah!i can survive with that.. XD)
A doctor?Eureka!Thats it!A doctor is the perfect job.In fact,it have been my dream job since i was in primary school.However,with the quota of 1 malay student in a course,in a universty,in Singapore.there goes my chance of entering a local uni.Its hard to enter a uni with that kind of limitation.Dreaming on to be doing medicine in Singapore,it is reserved for the other races.As i am writing this entry,i came across with an article.I read it and it hurt my pride for becoming a malay in Singapore.It distinctly shows how unfair it is to be treated as a not very intellectual community.Not respected.It really hurts and i really mean it.I cant say much about it.I stop it now.. :)
What i have stated above is not my main concern.My main concern is,where in the world am i going???
I will not be going to junior colleges and take my 'A' level.I dont have any confidence in passing my General Paper.I am not very proficient in my english language.No pre-universities for me,not really interested in it.Therefore,I'm left with a poly life ahead of me..
Here comes another problem.My school have just started a new course.It is a Diploma in Islamic Studies.The catch to it is this.After 2 years of following this course,i will be promoted to the second year of uni available after this course.That would mean im skipping a year!I am interested with it but it means that i will need to continue my arabic studies..which..i am not very keen at... :( I have barely survive for 4 years with my arabic studies..I know that i should not be thinking of going to this path when my arabic studies are not powerful,but my heart says to stay and take it.Hah..here comes the fickle-minded mind again..
Thats not all.After 2 years,i will need to pursue my studies overseas.Studying overseas sounds so cool.But,it is very costly.I dont want it to be a burden to my parents.I wish to study only in local uni..
But if i dont,i will be going to polytechnic.With this,i need to wait for my 'O' level result on the 13th of January 2014.So..yeah.In poly,i have choose a few courses that im keen.As to what my teacher said,not Mr Google,i will be able to work right after 3 years in poly and get the company to sponsor me in my degree studies.
Tomorrow is the registration for the DPI.I really dont know whether i should enroll myself in it.
I may not be choosing the right path but maybe i will need to learn the hard way.I actually have tons to type but i...IDK...Just blank..
At the same time,i am looking forward to what i will choose.If i have a wish,i will wish for someone that can help me make my decision.I know its stupid for not believing in myself but i just cant decide.Im tired of thinking.But what i know that i will be choosing between these 3 options:
1)Taking a gap year.
2)Going to DPI.
3)Going to poly.
Yeah.Im done with pouring out my thoughts here but there are like 70% left in my brain.THATS ALL!!!
P/s:The longest entry ever!!